When I was first applying to college a few years ago, I remember reading the list of requirements for my University thinking “How on earth am I going to pull this off?” The requirements were quite rigorous, and in comparison to other applicants, (my classmates at the time ) I felt like I didn’t measure up. My GPA was pretty average ( a little below what my college was asking for). I didn’t have a vast amount of extracurricular involvement; in fact the only things I really did in high school were cheerleading,culinary arts, and a work-based learning program. I didn’t have a high SAT score ( I actually only took it once). Nevertheless, i’ll cut myself some slack and say my essays and recommendations were good; because SOMEHOW…I got accepted to my dream school (the current university that I go to). Getting that acceptance letter was probably the happiest day of my life! I called my mom and cried tears of joy lol.
But would you believe that I wasn’t even going to apply? I wanted to spare myself the rejection that I thought was coming, but my parents convinced me that I really had nothing to lose by filling out the application. I’m so happy that I did because now i’m here! There is no doubt in my mind that God had His hands all over that situation. There was no way I could’ve made it here on my own ability. Although I may have perceived my weaknesses as shortcomings. God saw great potential!
Now i’m a year or so away from graduating…thinking about post-grad plans. I really want to get accepted to a master’s program, but what I truly need is a dietetic internship! This is essential to being able to practice as a registered dietitian. Unfortunately only about 50% of students get matched to a program. It’s a scary thought that I could endure all these years of undergrad (the long list of sciences I’m STILL working though)…and not even get matched! It’s a really competitive field, and at times it’s hard not to look at yourself in relation to others. In all my thinking, those same feelings of doubt and inadequacy I had prior to undergrad began to creep in. I began to wonder if I have enough work experience, volunteer experience, and the grades…is what I’ve done so far good enough for potential grad schools?
God checked me real quick!
One, He told me to stop limiting Him, because He is capable of doing far more than I can even begin to imagine. He is the owner of time and the creator of all things.There is no one like Him.
- That they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none beside me. I am the , and there is none else. I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the do all these things (Isaiah 45:6-7)
- He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted. (Job 5:9)
Two, He told me to stop looking at my own ability and to rely on Him. I’m human. I have flaws…I forget things alot, and there’s only so much my mind and body can bear. But God, He is so perfect…He holds all knowledge and all strength.
- Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. (2 Corinthians 3:5)
- Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
- No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. (Romans 8:37)
and lastly He told me that what He has for me is for me, and nothing can stop His purpose for my life.
- Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart…(Jeremiah 1:5)
- For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. (Ephesians 2:10)
- And those He predestined, He also called; those He called, He also justified; those He justified, He also glorified. (Romans 8:30).
In my mind I was so caught up in trying to fit the mold of what I think programs are looking for, that I would literally drive myself crazy. I had to take several steps back, just breath, and reevaluate. I had to reignite my passion…for the right reasons. Instead of trying to please a dietetic internship program…I need to make serving God my ultimate focus. If I just focus on that first, He will give me all that I need to succeed.
God qualifies those He calls. Though I may have weaknesses and areas where I feel like I just don’t measure up; God’s power is shown perfect in those areas. He is sufficient for me!
To the person reading this post. It may look like you need to do more or be more based on society’s idea of “successful” but you are enough as you are. Let God work in your weaknesses. Much love 🙂